Yesterday (Wednesday) Gracie was weaned completely from Ativan according to the weaning schedule we left the hospital with and I hate it!!! I have been so tempted to pull out the bottle and give her some, especially now at 4am and her eyes aren't even heavy. She hasn't really slept at all all day and is super irritable and doesn't really know what she wants. I told Jason that I would "sleep" in the living room with her so he could get some sleep for work but no sleep for me...I'm just hoping that maybe this time around the swing will lull her into a deep enough sleep that she doesn't wake up two minutes later.
We put Gracie in her vibrating chair thinking that would help her relax and sleep because when we held her and bounced her she would begin to dose...it didn't work. But she did love it!
If anyone else has experienced the awful effects of weaning and how they survived I'd appreciate hearing about it. I just don't know if I will be able to survive more days and nights like today. And I know I'm hesitant to continue weaning on the methadone until the affects of not having Ativan have subsided.
Grace is asleep, I'm going to try and get some sleep too before Morgan wakes up or she startles herself awake.