Since Grace was born other than pumping and storing breast milk and sitting by her side stroking her hair and praying for her there has been very little that I could do for my sweet girl. However, slowly many of Grace's nurses have allowed me to be more 'active' in my interactions with her.
First I was able to suction out her mouth when she had too much spit in it. Then I was able to put lotion on her dry skin. Next I started taking her temperature and changing diapers. Today I even changed two stinky diapers!! Who ever thought that would be an exciting event? And the crowning event was to be able to almost hold her.
Let me explain...because she still has the breathing tube in and her wound on her chest is quite bad we can't hold her and sit in the chair with her. But our wonderful nurse tonight said that she would help us kind of hold Gracie by putting our arms under her and pulling her closer to us. So we put down the side of her little bed, slide one arm under her neck and the other under her bum and just cuddled with her. I was the happiest person alive at that moment--to have my baby in my arms again, words can not describe the joy that I felt. All I can say is that Gracie better like being held because once her tube comes out and I'm given the ok, I'll be holding her for my entire visits!!
As for where Grace is, not much has changed. We still are waiting for Grace to get all of the excess fluid off to allow for easier breathing. Plus her chest wound is not healing as well as it should be, so she is being watched closely to make sure that it is heading in the right direction and not getting worse or infected.