As many of you know I am a Hall Advisor at BYU and as such this week is one of our busiest weeks of the year. We are preparing for students to move in next week and in so doing, we spend the entire week training our RAs (resident assistants). So needless to say this week has been something I have been dreading since March. I knew that trying to juggle work, Morgan, and Grace would be difficult to say the least, and it has been. Fortunately though my wonderful co-workers and managers have allowed me to take a back seat to presenting and just be present.
Anyway, though this week is crazy, hectic, and exhausting it started out with a wonderful gift and surprise. Sunday afternoon when Jason and I got to the hospital our nurse told us (with a huge smile) that she had a surprise for us---immediately I asked if we could hold Grace. Yes, indeed, our nurse asked the Attending if we could hold her (since I had been hinting at it for the last couple of days) and she didn't see any reason why not. So Jason got to hold Grace first because he knew that once Grace was put into my arms she wouldn't leave them until we had to leave. So after an hour, Jason allowed me to hold our sweet baby and I was in heaven. Grace just absolutely loved it, she slept peacefully once she settled in. After holding Gracie for two hours I had to put her back in her bed... each moment she is in my arms I am comforted and gain strength, I only hope she does too.
This morning when I got to the hospital I asked when it was possible to put her in some clothes, Grace's nurse said she didn't see why I couldn't do it now as long as the clothes had buttons and allowed for all the wires and tubes to be free. I was pleased to hear this because I brought a little shirt with me to the hospital and immediately pulled it out and had the nurse help me put it on my little sweetheart. Next time I just have to bring in something that isn't purple, though it wasn't much, the purple on the color made Gracie look bluer than she really is. It will be hard not being able to put her in purple, because I just love little girls in purple--Morgan's wardrobe was mostly purple at this age--o'well.